1. Blood ties. My family is so far away on this holiday & I miss them so, so, so much. I love them so dearly. I am so infinitely grateful that I have a healthy, loving relationship with both of my parents & have reached the point in my life where I actually miss being around them on the holidays & find myself wishing I could afford to fly back east just for 3 days. It took my dad & I a long time, but we've been enjoying the last year & a half beautifully, and I feel as if I've only just begun to learn how to love & appreciate every moment with family.
2. Chosen family. We have the one we're born with, and then the one we choose. I am so, so, so grateful for the amazing tribe I've gathered around me. People who really & truly see me. People who love me unconditionally and show up in my life in the most positive, loving, kind ways. I feel like I have everything I've always wanted & deserved right now. Thank you, all of you. I love you.
3. Morning yoga is the best way I've ever started Thanksgiving! My friend Lizzy taught her first class this morning to a group of us...it was so perfect, so beautiful, so heart-opening. What better way to give thanks than this?
4. Community. I spent my day volunteering at Cafe Gratitude serving free Thanksgiving Day meals & in addition to spending time with some of the members of my chosen tribe, I also got to connect with other people in the local community. It was a giant lovefest.
5. Being of service especially on the holidays, just fills me up. Don't hide your heart from the world - giving is where it's at!
6. Raw pumpkin pie was the best part of my meal. Yum!
7. Abandoned meadows. Took a walk after dinner today and discovered that the stairs near up the hill from our house lead to a sweet little piece of land. From that far up, you can see all of town.
8. Living in Marin. Nature is all around me here. I have redwoods & waterfalls at my finger tips, deer as landmates, hummingbirds visiting for lunch. It fills me with such joy to live in one of the most beautiful places on eARTh.
9. Warm spicy chai keeping the frost out on this blustering day.
10. Mother Earth for blessing us in so many ways. What sweet perfection, sufficiency, balance...I am full of awe every single day.
11. The best naturopath ever has been helping me reverse hypothyroidism for the last few years. His guidance + my intuition + divine downloads from the Universe = kickass healing team. Tomorrow we get to focus on my gut & hormones, the remaining puzzle pieces.
12. Reversing a disease has been the most amazing thing I think I've ever done in my life. The 'Path of the Wounded Healer' has been so intensely beautiful & amazing & getting sick was actually the best thing that ever happened to me. Through this, I discovered the real, authentic me inside. My thyroid labs are coming out clean, and once we get the rest of my hormones & gut issues tackled, I will be living in a 100% balanced & healthy body. I'm almost there!
13. Herb School. A few months ago, I got accepted to the California School of Herbal Studies & today am polishing off my application for one of the coveted Garden Apprenticeships which will enable me to spend even more time playing in the dirt, talking to the plants & learning from them. May it be so.
14. Team Goddess. I have sooooooo many amazing women in my life these days. I have no idea how they assembled or when I called them all into my life, but I am in awe at how loved, supported & held I feel by all the ladies in my life who have held space, prayed for me, prayed with me, sat in ceremony with me, send me words of encouragement, reminded me who I am & have just shown up as beautiful reflections. I love all of you.
15. Recommendation Letter Pam-Anela, an old coworker of mine is one of the sweetest, most generous beings. Thank you to her & Chris King (another recent coworker) for writing me letters of recommendation for the Garden Apprenticeship program.
16. Luna. This month's blue moon energy was intense. I am so glad when I look up into the night sky & see our sweet dear Luna basking her light down on us, guiding us through the darkness.
17. Avasa & Matty Love for singing songs of love & beauty. A married couple in my gratitude clan, they folks are on fire with creativity & inspiration. Avasa has the voice of a goddess, for real & Matty knows just how to balance it. Check their music out here.
18. The voice of the heart always whispering the way to go, steering us towards our highest good.
19. Candles that keep me warm, that give me a focus when I am praying at my altar, that bathe me in their light & help me connect with the Divine.
20. Tears that cleanse away our pains, our fears, our sorrow, our grief, always allowing everything to flow out so we can make room for more love, more beauty, more good.
21. Generosity. An amazing video from the Charity Focus gang, some of my local heroes:
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
30-nine
1. All women's sweat lodge. After years of practicing the native ways & participating in numerous sweats, tipi meetings & a vision quest, I finally found a local women's sweat lodge! I love co-ed prayers, but there is something so sweet & nourishing about praying together with other women. The beauty makes my heart smile. And it's only 5 minutes from home.
2. The Universe for reliving me again and again of things that no longer serve me. EVERYTHING happens for a reason.
3. Self-love going deeper and deeper than I ever imagined was possible. I can see how the love for myself I discovered a few years ago was only the beginning. This love affair has so much terrain to cover in each lifetime. I am so grateful to know myself, every intricacy, every crevice of beauty & divinity.
4. Deepening. Healing my relationship with my dad almost 2 years ago was just the beginning. Now I get to go deeper & deeper in healing, letting go of the programming, unlearning the negative self-talk, deepening in healthy habits, deepening in love. I love this human journey!
5. The beautiful Blue Moon for casting a whee bit of the chaos of change on us to stir things up and get us present.
6. The Soul of Money by Lynne Twist is one of the most amazing books I have ever picked up. I've been slowly digesting it over the last few months, a chunk at a time. It's so full of the abundance medicine I need right now.
7. Serendipitous card readings. I had a momentary freakout about earning herb school tuition in time, and then went to Cafe Gratitude for some love medicine. Some nights, a local Wicca gives free card readings, so I pulled a card - The Lovers, pointing to the karmic connection that is stirring up the financial issues calling to be healed at this time.
8. Wheatgrass apple ginger tonic in a wine glass was the perfect pampering medicine after releasing so many emotions. I am healing, I am healed.
9. Amma. I feel so blessed to live so close to Amma's ashram & to be able to get hugs & love from her so often. This time I wasn't feeling the desire to mess with the chaos, so found a beautiful little nook to nest in during service. I cocooned myself, and as the music played & everyone sang, I melted into a giant love puddle & became one with the floor. Thank you, Ammachi!
10. Dheva for her radiance, beauty & love. For holding space & always being there for me. I love you, dear sweet friend. So glad you are in my world this lifetime.
11. The infinite lessons from my 2-month housing situation: do not settle, don't convince yourself to stay in ANY situation that is anything less than positive, loving & supportive. Let go & make space for what you want to enter your life.
12. Surrender. So grateful for learning my own strength by allowing energy to move through me. Simply accepting & allowing is the way.
13. Reiki clinic seva. I donated several hours of healing work at the SF Reiki Clinic and it just felt so yummy & juicy to be doing healing work on people who are stepping up their level of self-care. The client feedback I got reminded me why I do this work & how many lives I am capable of changing. So excited for more of this work! I hope one day I can facilitate a clinic up here in Marin.
14. Anna Dorian my beloved reiki teacher. I went to a shamanic journeying group one night & met her. I had been putting it out to the Universe that I was ready for an energy healing teacher to move forward on my path & was instantly enamored with her bright, radiant energy, laughter & love so knew she was it. Then shortly after, a spot opened up for me to do study with her last spring & become a practitioner.
15. Allowing things to unfold naturally. Trust, trust, trust.
16. Floradix herbal iron love that is so helping my body.
17. May I Be Frank is my friend Ryland's film. It documents the transformation of Frank Ferrante's life in the span of 42 Days. It's an amazing look at a funny, big hearted human being healing his heart, changing his life & discovering the person who has been inside the whole time. You can learn more & watch the preview here. It made me laugh & it made me cry - both equally beautiful experiences.
18. The amazing feeling of getting paid well to do things I love & enjoy. The Universe has been delivering me some really amazing gigs lately that have been fun, financially abundant & easy. More of this is coming my way soon.
19. Cleanse assistance. I also got paid to help a friend with a cleanse she was doing, which was so in alignment with my highest self & brought me such joy. I am feeling into all these places where I get to create financial abundance doing things that just feel right. It's growing. Energy flows where attention goes!
20. Adam Barley 5 Rhythms Chaos Workshop. For 3 days I danced in chaos with this man, this magical teacher. I left there feeling more grounded within chaos than I had ever known was possible. Thank you, Adam, for teaching me how very much I am capable of. I feel as if I can do all that I want to in the face of anything right now!
21. Marin County for being the most beautiful place I've called home so far.
2. The Universe for reliving me again and again of things that no longer serve me. EVERYTHING happens for a reason.
3. Self-love going deeper and deeper than I ever imagined was possible. I can see how the love for myself I discovered a few years ago was only the beginning. This love affair has so much terrain to cover in each lifetime. I am so grateful to know myself, every intricacy, every crevice of beauty & divinity.
4. Deepening. Healing my relationship with my dad almost 2 years ago was just the beginning. Now I get to go deeper & deeper in healing, letting go of the programming, unlearning the negative self-talk, deepening in healthy habits, deepening in love. I love this human journey!
5. The beautiful Blue Moon for casting a whee bit of the chaos of change on us to stir things up and get us present.
6. The Soul of Money by Lynne Twist is one of the most amazing books I have ever picked up. I've been slowly digesting it over the last few months, a chunk at a time. It's so full of the abundance medicine I need right now.
7. Serendipitous card readings. I had a momentary freakout about earning herb school tuition in time, and then went to Cafe Gratitude for some love medicine. Some nights, a local Wicca gives free card readings, so I pulled a card - The Lovers, pointing to the karmic connection that is stirring up the financial issues calling to be healed at this time.
8. Wheatgrass apple ginger tonic in a wine glass was the perfect pampering medicine after releasing so many emotions. I am healing, I am healed.
9. Amma. I feel so blessed to live so close to Amma's ashram & to be able to get hugs & love from her so often. This time I wasn't feeling the desire to mess with the chaos, so found a beautiful little nook to nest in during service. I cocooned myself, and as the music played & everyone sang, I melted into a giant love puddle & became one with the floor. Thank you, Ammachi!
10. Dheva for her radiance, beauty & love. For holding space & always being there for me. I love you, dear sweet friend. So glad you are in my world this lifetime.
11. The infinite lessons from my 2-month housing situation: do not settle, don't convince yourself to stay in ANY situation that is anything less than positive, loving & supportive. Let go & make space for what you want to enter your life.
12. Surrender. So grateful for learning my own strength by allowing energy to move through me. Simply accepting & allowing is the way.
13. Reiki clinic seva. I donated several hours of healing work at the SF Reiki Clinic and it just felt so yummy & juicy to be doing healing work on people who are stepping up their level of self-care. The client feedback I got reminded me why I do this work & how many lives I am capable of changing. So excited for more of this work! I hope one day I can facilitate a clinic up here in Marin.
14. Anna Dorian my beloved reiki teacher. I went to a shamanic journeying group one night & met her. I had been putting it out to the Universe that I was ready for an energy healing teacher to move forward on my path & was instantly enamored with her bright, radiant energy, laughter & love so knew she was it. Then shortly after, a spot opened up for me to do study with her last spring & become a practitioner.
15. Allowing things to unfold naturally. Trust, trust, trust.
16. Floradix herbal iron love that is so helping my body.
17. May I Be Frank is my friend Ryland's film. It documents the transformation of Frank Ferrante's life in the span of 42 Days. It's an amazing look at a funny, big hearted human being healing his heart, changing his life & discovering the person who has been inside the whole time. You can learn more & watch the preview here. It made me laugh & it made me cry - both equally beautiful experiences.
18. The amazing feeling of getting paid well to do things I love & enjoy. The Universe has been delivering me some really amazing gigs lately that have been fun, financially abundant & easy. More of this is coming my way soon.
19. Cleanse assistance. I also got paid to help a friend with a cleanse she was doing, which was so in alignment with my highest self & brought me such joy. I am feeling into all these places where I get to create financial abundance doing things that just feel right. It's growing. Energy flows where attention goes!
20. Adam Barley 5 Rhythms Chaos Workshop. For 3 days I danced in chaos with this man, this magical teacher. I left there feeling more grounded within chaos than I had ever known was possible. Thank you, Adam, for teaching me how very much I am capable of. I feel as if I can do all that I want to in the face of anything right now!
21. Marin County for being the most beautiful place I've called home so far.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
thirty-8.
1. Being greeted by dawn. I have the most amazing view of the sunrise from my bed...large gorgeous east-facing windows give me a few of the sun coming up from behind the mountain each day.
2. Purging. I did a pretty decent purge before my travels, but after a year on the road you learn to live with so little & I am grateful to bring that experience into the process of paring my belongings down even more. Releasing, releasing, releasing. It makes me feel so much lighter!
3. Not settling. I temporarily found myself in joyless housing & work situations, which reminded me I don't need to settle - ever! The amazing things I want really are out there & do come to me when I allow them in. I choose to return to movement, continuing to seek what I want & not stopping til I find it. When I live this way, my life is full the most magical experiences - it's time to return to it & discard everything that is not in alignment with that I choose to create. So I gave notice that I'm moving out & am shifting work things as well.
4. Palo Santo for cleansing the energies in my room & helping me create a safe haven where clarity always comes and my prayers are always answered.
5. The Abounding River. I've picked the 42-Day Cafe Gratitude Abounding River practice up again and already so much is shifting. This work takes you deep into abundance and love!
6. Joanna. My Memphis belle saved me from a weird couchsurfing situation when I was traveling in Memphis (I chose to call her instead of settling for staying where I was) & we are still so closely in touch, and she's decided to be my partner for the 42-day Abounding River process. Yay!
7. Daily medication & prayer is the best medicine ever.
8. Betty is the best rockstar car ever. Cross-country 3 times, Burning Man twice & just a huge comfort for me through so many things. Yes, I love my car. And she loves me too.
9. The messages in the cards. Everything has been super spot on the last few readings I've gotten from any of the Doreen Virtue Decks - messages about doing healing work, how to heal financial blocks & shift things. And I keep getting the soulmate & twin flame cards from different people using different decks. Fun.
10. Gabe for giving me one especially lovely reading about manifesting the tuition money for herb school. So many things I needed to hear to heal things & take control of the situation. Stepping into my power!
11. Rumi for always having the words that my heart needs to hear.
12. Hafiz. Ditto.
13. Halloween is the best holiday ever. So excited for this years Ecstatic Dance event. The abundance of conscious, sober dance events in the Bay Area astounds me.
14. The Good Earth is our small town's natural foods store, but it's more like town hall. It sometimes takes 2 hours to grocery shop because you run into so many people, and I love every single minute of it!
15. Gluten-free goat mac and cheese from The Good Earth. As cooked food has found it's way back into my diet, this amazing gluten-free cheesy goodness seems to be finding it's way onto my plate a little too often. So good!
16. Vegan coconut tapioca pudding is another G'Earth item that is just too good. Yum, yum, yum.
17. Cleansing. I feel like I have a decent balance of raw & cooked, but have been eating some stuff (see above) that isn't that great for me, so I think it's time to cleanse with some raw food for a bit to elevate my vibration. Cleansing feels so good - releases so much!
18. The plant nation for feeding us, giving us medicine, cleaning our air, rooting beneath us, providing us with shelter & love.
19. Sunshine transmitting its energy into our skin, our food & everything around us. Light, light, light.
20. Sound healing and the masters of the craft. Crystal bowls, didgeridoos, gongs & the whole arsenal - woah.
21. Fiddle syncs. I've been having so many fiddle synchronicities lately - I know the time for me to buy one is oh so close. I've been scoping out the first one I want - it's calling to me. Soon it's gonna come home with me.
2. Purging. I did a pretty decent purge before my travels, but after a year on the road you learn to live with so little & I am grateful to bring that experience into the process of paring my belongings down even more. Releasing, releasing, releasing. It makes me feel so much lighter!
3. Not settling. I temporarily found myself in joyless housing & work situations, which reminded me I don't need to settle - ever! The amazing things I want really are out there & do come to me when I allow them in. I choose to return to movement, continuing to seek what I want & not stopping til I find it. When I live this way, my life is full the most magical experiences - it's time to return to it & discard everything that is not in alignment with that I choose to create. So I gave notice that I'm moving out & am shifting work things as well.
4. Palo Santo for cleansing the energies in my room & helping me create a safe haven where clarity always comes and my prayers are always answered.
5. The Abounding River. I've picked the 42-Day Cafe Gratitude Abounding River practice up again and already so much is shifting. This work takes you deep into abundance and love!
6. Joanna. My Memphis belle saved me from a weird couchsurfing situation when I was traveling in Memphis (I chose to call her instead of settling for staying where I was) & we are still so closely in touch, and she's decided to be my partner for the 42-day Abounding River process. Yay!
7. Daily medication & prayer is the best medicine ever.
8. Betty is the best rockstar car ever. Cross-country 3 times, Burning Man twice & just a huge comfort for me through so many things. Yes, I love my car. And she loves me too.
9. The messages in the cards. Everything has been super spot on the last few readings I've gotten from any of the Doreen Virtue Decks - messages about doing healing work, how to heal financial blocks & shift things. And I keep getting the soulmate & twin flame cards from different people using different decks. Fun.
10. Gabe for giving me one especially lovely reading about manifesting the tuition money for herb school. So many things I needed to hear to heal things & take control of the situation. Stepping into my power!
11. Rumi for always having the words that my heart needs to hear.
12. Hafiz. Ditto.
13. Halloween is the best holiday ever. So excited for this years Ecstatic Dance event. The abundance of conscious, sober dance events in the Bay Area astounds me.
14. The Good Earth is our small town's natural foods store, but it's more like town hall. It sometimes takes 2 hours to grocery shop because you run into so many people, and I love every single minute of it!
15. Gluten-free goat mac and cheese from The Good Earth. As cooked food has found it's way back into my diet, this amazing gluten-free cheesy goodness seems to be finding it's way onto my plate a little too often. So good!
16. Vegan coconut tapioca pudding is another G'Earth item that is just too good. Yum, yum, yum.
17. Cleansing. I feel like I have a decent balance of raw & cooked, but have been eating some stuff (see above) that isn't that great for me, so I think it's time to cleanse with some raw food for a bit to elevate my vibration. Cleansing feels so good - releases so much!
18. The plant nation for feeding us, giving us medicine, cleaning our air, rooting beneath us, providing us with shelter & love.
19. Sunshine transmitting its energy into our skin, our food & everything around us. Light, light, light.
20. Sound healing and the masters of the craft. Crystal bowls, didgeridoos, gongs & the whole arsenal - woah.
21. Fiddle syncs. I've been having so many fiddle synchronicities lately - I know the time for me to buy one is oh so close. I've been scoping out the first one I want - it's calling to me. Soon it's gonna come home with me.
Friday, September 17, 2010
30-se7en
I guess this is the Burning Man addition :)
1. Burning Man. I swear it gets better & better every time. This year was the most gentle, grounded, sweet experience. I camped with the best people ever & had the most amazing time.
2. Camp Gratitude. I can't even put this into words, but I camnped with the best people ever. Our camp was so grounded, full of clearing & healing. We ate all fresh, organic food all week long, had amazing communal meals, days full of playing guitar & singing about love in all it's forms. Can't wait til next year!
3. Jason Mraz for coming to play & sing at our camp every day. So great to meet such a positive force in delivering the message of love to the pop-culture masses in person & see that he really is an open-hearted, humble, sweet brother in person too. And his lady was oh so lovely too.
4. New connections. Amongst the beautiful angels I already knew in my camp, I got to meet a whole host of new angles on a mission to brighten the world with their light. So many beautiful conversations about healing, community, owning land and us being the ones we've waited for. We are doing it! I am so grateful for these new connections.
5. Sonya Sophia is an eARTh angel. There is no other way to describe here. One of my highlights at Burning Man this year was a 2-hour-long EFT session she led in a duststorm about tapping into our divine purpose. It was so magical, so healing & so beautiful to sit there with 100 other people doing this work in unison. I had been doing EFT for the last year & one if the women I've worked with told me about her. I am so glad I finally got to meet her - she is so amazing & I feel so called to train with her in the Bay Area when the time is right.
6. Reconnecting with some lovely beings I haven't gotten to spend a lot of time with in recent months. Sometimes space, time & distance are what we need to heal & when we come together again, it's so beautiful to meet from a new direction!
7. Dubstep massive. The bass therapy always does me right, eargasm after eargasm.
8. Rhythm Wave Camp was just a quick bike ride down the playa from us so I got to spend a lot of time with my 5 Rhythms dance familia. This practice has been such a big part of my life & it was so wonderful to be able to experience it out there & dance barefoot on the bamboo floor in the mornings. Perfect way to wake up.
9. Yoga & 5 Rhythms at the Temple. Wow, what a sight to behold! Hundreds of people doing yoga together at sunset in front of the temple, and then a healing dance party after.
10. Temple experiences. When I walked in the temple to write my prayers on it, I was come undone by the energy. I felt as if I had taken on everyone's grief & sorrow and just allowed it to move through me in the form of cleansing tears. Then this beautiful man played his music which completed my release & lifted me into such a heightened state of love.
11. Fresh young coconuts were the best thing to have out on the playa. Thank you, nature's gatorade. Hydration is key.
12. Vegan Beet Kvass is fermented, healing delicousness.
13. Love. Just so many beautiful soul connections I cannot even begin to describe.
14. Free ice cream in the hot Nevada desert surrounded by beautiful people in costumes covered in dust. Beeyouteefull!
15. Generosity. The generosity I encounter at Burning Man always makes my heart well up. We are bringing this change to the default world by living lives of service, in alignment with our souls, giving just to give.
16. The giant dancing lady was by far one of the best art pieces on the playa this year - so powerful, graceful and inspiring.
17. Sea dragon art car adventures. They always have the most amazing music - a lot of world fusiony dubstep, glitch & bass with the sweetest melody to lift you up. Mmmm.
18. Sleep. This year I actually got some!
19. Playa babies. So many special & amazing little baby beings playing in the dust this year. It brings a sweet, innocent balance to the chaos.
20. Dust storm burn. The burning of The Man was so intense. A massive dust storm passed through as he was being lit & the combination made it look like we were in some crazy apocalyptic reality, which was actually quite beautiful in so many ways.
21. Heart-opening. I finally feel so completely healed from my last relationship which ended at the end of last winter. It took several months and there were so many lessons in self-love & healing and now my heart is completely wide open for whatever love comes next. There is always more :)
1. Burning Man. I swear it gets better & better every time. This year was the most gentle, grounded, sweet experience. I camped with the best people ever & had the most amazing time.
2. Camp Gratitude. I can't even put this into words, but I camnped with the best people ever. Our camp was so grounded, full of clearing & healing. We ate all fresh, organic food all week long, had amazing communal meals, days full of playing guitar & singing about love in all it's forms. Can't wait til next year!
3. Jason Mraz for coming to play & sing at our camp every day. So great to meet such a positive force in delivering the message of love to the pop-culture masses in person & see that he really is an open-hearted, humble, sweet brother in person too. And his lady was oh so lovely too.
4. New connections. Amongst the beautiful angels I already knew in my camp, I got to meet a whole host of new angles on a mission to brighten the world with their light. So many beautiful conversations about healing, community, owning land and us being the ones we've waited for. We are doing it! I am so grateful for these new connections.
5. Sonya Sophia is an eARTh angel. There is no other way to describe here. One of my highlights at Burning Man this year was a 2-hour-long EFT session she led in a duststorm about tapping into our divine purpose. It was so magical, so healing & so beautiful to sit there with 100 other people doing this work in unison. I had been doing EFT for the last year & one if the women I've worked with told me about her. I am so glad I finally got to meet her - she is so amazing & I feel so called to train with her in the Bay Area when the time is right.
6. Reconnecting with some lovely beings I haven't gotten to spend a lot of time with in recent months. Sometimes space, time & distance are what we need to heal & when we come together again, it's so beautiful to meet from a new direction!
7. Dubstep massive. The bass therapy always does me right, eargasm after eargasm.
8. Rhythm Wave Camp was just a quick bike ride down the playa from us so I got to spend a lot of time with my 5 Rhythms dance familia. This practice has been such a big part of my life & it was so wonderful to be able to experience it out there & dance barefoot on the bamboo floor in the mornings. Perfect way to wake up.
9. Yoga & 5 Rhythms at the Temple. Wow, what a sight to behold! Hundreds of people doing yoga together at sunset in front of the temple, and then a healing dance party after.
10. Temple experiences. When I walked in the temple to write my prayers on it, I was come undone by the energy. I felt as if I had taken on everyone's grief & sorrow and just allowed it to move through me in the form of cleansing tears. Then this beautiful man played his music which completed my release & lifted me into such a heightened state of love.
11. Fresh young coconuts were the best thing to have out on the playa. Thank you, nature's gatorade. Hydration is key.
12. Vegan Beet Kvass is fermented, healing delicousness.
13. Love. Just so many beautiful soul connections I cannot even begin to describe.
14. Free ice cream in the hot Nevada desert surrounded by beautiful people in costumes covered in dust. Beeyouteefull!
15. Generosity. The generosity I encounter at Burning Man always makes my heart well up. We are bringing this change to the default world by living lives of service, in alignment with our souls, giving just to give.
16. The giant dancing lady was by far one of the best art pieces on the playa this year - so powerful, graceful and inspiring.
17. Sea dragon art car adventures. They always have the most amazing music - a lot of world fusiony dubstep, glitch & bass with the sweetest melody to lift you up. Mmmm.
18. Sleep. This year I actually got some!
19. Playa babies. So many special & amazing little baby beings playing in the dust this year. It brings a sweet, innocent balance to the chaos.
20. Dust storm burn. The burning of The Man was so intense. A massive dust storm passed through as he was being lit & the combination made it look like we were in some crazy apocalyptic reality, which was actually quite beautiful in so many ways.
21. Heart-opening. I finally feel so completely healed from my last relationship which ended at the end of last winter. It took several months and there were so many lessons in self-love & healing and now my heart is completely wide open for whatever love comes next. There is always more :)
Saturday, July 10, 2010
thirty-6.
1. Speaking my truth. It's not always easy with some people, but speaking how I genuinely feel from a place of love & not allowing anyone to tell me I 'should' feel or be any differently than I am feels so delicious & empowering. It's removed so much fear and allowed to go to even deeper levels of self-love & alignment with my inner guidance. Eternally grateful for all of this healing.
2. Reiki clinic beauty. I'm fulfilling yet another one of my dreams by putting my healing abilities to good use as a practitioner at SF's sliding-scale reiki clinic. Bringing affordable healing to the masses is a longtime dream of mine, I can't believe I'm really a part of something so major.
3. I Will Be Light by Matisyahu has become one of my anthems the last few months. I just can't seem to get enough of it. Burn Away the Darkness:
4. Surprises. Life is so full of them, each one bringing the magic of joy to us. I love a good mystery. ;)
5. Bird medicine. Saw a hawk, Great Blue Heron, egret, hummingbird & a plethora of swallows all in the span of an hour. I love where I live.
6. Releasing. Feels so good letting go. Every time I let go of things that no longer fit, it frees up so much space & the things I've been craving instantly come in to fill that space. It's an instant confirmation from the Universe - follow your gut!
7. Redwood hot tub in my backyard. Nightly soaks staring up talking to the star brothers & sisters, mmm, I love this before bed ritual.
8. Dance medicine. I know I've said it a million times, but I'll say it again - I love my dance familia & this 5 Rhythms movement medicine that has brought so much love & beauty into my life.
9. Palo Santo for clearing the energies & tickling my senses.
10. Ceremonial life just fills me up. All these Native ways of living, praying, bring with the land & our hearts. This path brings me so much joy, so much growth, so much healing and so much love for everything.
11. Chocolate selling galore. It feels so wonderful to make money doing something that I love. I look forward to the day when all of my income is coming only from things I love - art, traveling, healing work, raw chocolate & making music.
12. Voice healing. At a ceremony awhile back, the curandero told me I must sing. When I was younger I had an amazing voice, and as I got older, the 5th chakra issues that manifested as hypothyroidism blocked me. Singing & getting my voice back has been such a beautiful part of my healing path - I am so grateful to hear it coming back & transforming beyond its previous capacity. Love this!
13. Photography. It still fills my heart & soul up, after all these years. I still get so much joy from photographing, printing, editing bodies of work. What a huge gift from the Universe, to find things that are always lifting you up, allowing you to express yourself.
14. Permacultured backyards. I love where I live. It's so magical to grab fresh food from the yard and bring it in to prepare a meal. Extra delicious, extra rewarding & extra simple.
15. The little ones. Seems to be a big burst of baby-making going on amongst my friends. I guess we are finally hitting the age where it's time to settle down & create families. I love seeing all these beautiful ways in which life chooses to express itself in human form. It does wonders for my heart.
16. Summer. Now that I live in nature & am outside the city, I experience summer temperatures again. Feels so good & to think I'm only a 25 minute drive to SF. It feels like I am worlds away, here amongst the redwoods & waterfalls. Best move I ever made.
17. Divine guidance. I have noticed how my inner guidance has so very openly steered me to all the places I've needed to live & how much those places served in my growth in transformation - NYC, SF, Fairfax and especially that year of traveling around in line with my true gypsy nature. I trust that I will always know exactly where I am supposed to go so long as I take the time to listen inside. Some things, we just know.
18. The waluta from my vision quest in May hangs on my wall where I am called to look at it constantly. Over and over again, I am reminded of my prayer from the vision quest, my time up on the hill & all that has unfolded since. It is working, this constant prayer to be in a dis-ease free body.
19. Health. These last few months of cycling back in to heal a chronic illness have been so challenging, but I know that each step is part of the process & is bringing me back to health & vitality. I can feel the changes in my body, my energy levels, my mood, and am grateful to finally be feeling like I am closer to being myself again. After 2 years of feeling amazing & living the life of my dreams, it was so scary to cycle back in & I am so grateful for this natural healing path & all I have learned from it.
20. Wildcrafted herbs made into tea and tinctures, oh my. I love this plant-filled life.
21. Heart-opening again and again. The deeper we go into self-love, the deeper our ability to open our hearts to all the amazing people in our lives. I am so grateful for the amazing, positive, nourishing connections I've cultivated in the last few years that have made this a constant process. I love you.
2. Reiki clinic beauty. I'm fulfilling yet another one of my dreams by putting my healing abilities to good use as a practitioner at SF's sliding-scale reiki clinic. Bringing affordable healing to the masses is a longtime dream of mine, I can't believe I'm really a part of something so major.
3. I Will Be Light by Matisyahu has become one of my anthems the last few months. I just can't seem to get enough of it. Burn Away the Darkness:
4. Surprises. Life is so full of them, each one bringing the magic of joy to us. I love a good mystery. ;)
5. Bird medicine. Saw a hawk, Great Blue Heron, egret, hummingbird & a plethora of swallows all in the span of an hour. I love where I live.
6. Releasing. Feels so good letting go. Every time I let go of things that no longer fit, it frees up so much space & the things I've been craving instantly come in to fill that space. It's an instant confirmation from the Universe - follow your gut!
7. Redwood hot tub in my backyard. Nightly soaks staring up talking to the star brothers & sisters, mmm, I love this before bed ritual.
8. Dance medicine. I know I've said it a million times, but I'll say it again - I love my dance familia & this 5 Rhythms movement medicine that has brought so much love & beauty into my life.
9. Palo Santo for clearing the energies & tickling my senses.
10. Ceremonial life just fills me up. All these Native ways of living, praying, bring with the land & our hearts. This path brings me so much joy, so much growth, so much healing and so much love for everything.
11. Chocolate selling galore. It feels so wonderful to make money doing something that I love. I look forward to the day when all of my income is coming only from things I love - art, traveling, healing work, raw chocolate & making music.
12. Voice healing. At a ceremony awhile back, the curandero told me I must sing. When I was younger I had an amazing voice, and as I got older, the 5th chakra issues that manifested as hypothyroidism blocked me. Singing & getting my voice back has been such a beautiful part of my healing path - I am so grateful to hear it coming back & transforming beyond its previous capacity. Love this!
13. Photography. It still fills my heart & soul up, after all these years. I still get so much joy from photographing, printing, editing bodies of work. What a huge gift from the Universe, to find things that are always lifting you up, allowing you to express yourself.
14. Permacultured backyards. I love where I live. It's so magical to grab fresh food from the yard and bring it in to prepare a meal. Extra delicious, extra rewarding & extra simple.
15. The little ones. Seems to be a big burst of baby-making going on amongst my friends. I guess we are finally hitting the age where it's time to settle down & create families. I love seeing all these beautiful ways in which life chooses to express itself in human form. It does wonders for my heart.
16. Summer. Now that I live in nature & am outside the city, I experience summer temperatures again. Feels so good & to think I'm only a 25 minute drive to SF. It feels like I am worlds away, here amongst the redwoods & waterfalls. Best move I ever made.
17. Divine guidance. I have noticed how my inner guidance has so very openly steered me to all the places I've needed to live & how much those places served in my growth in transformation - NYC, SF, Fairfax and especially that year of traveling around in line with my true gypsy nature. I trust that I will always know exactly where I am supposed to go so long as I take the time to listen inside. Some things, we just know.
18. The waluta from my vision quest in May hangs on my wall where I am called to look at it constantly. Over and over again, I am reminded of my prayer from the vision quest, my time up on the hill & all that has unfolded since. It is working, this constant prayer to be in a dis-ease free body.
19. Health. These last few months of cycling back in to heal a chronic illness have been so challenging, but I know that each step is part of the process & is bringing me back to health & vitality. I can feel the changes in my body, my energy levels, my mood, and am grateful to finally be feeling like I am closer to being myself again. After 2 years of feeling amazing & living the life of my dreams, it was so scary to cycle back in & I am so grateful for this natural healing path & all I have learned from it.
20. Wildcrafted herbs made into tea and tinctures, oh my. I love this plant-filled life.
21. Heart-opening again and again. The deeper we go into self-love, the deeper our ability to open our hearts to all the amazing people in our lives. I am so grateful for the amazing, positive, nourishing connections I've cultivated in the last few years that have made this a constant process. I love you.
Monday, June 28, 2010
30-5ive.
1. Corte Madera Creek for providing me with such fulfillment every day. I love exploring new places, but it also feels good to have found one steady place to go on my walks & get to know it, develop a relationship with it.
2. The Buddha altar that someone set up at the creek. It's become the location of almost daily prayers for me lately & has provided a strong, grounded, safe place for me to release what no longer fits & set intentions for what's coming next.
3. Prayers of release. One prayer in particular this week was exceptionally powerful & I could feel instant shifts rippling through my life for the next week. An answer I had been seeking was finally ready to reveal itself to me. Beautiful, divine flow.
4. The Soulmate Experience. My friend Mali & Joe share such a beautiful soulmate connection & share it with the world in the form of their fb site and a soon to be published book. Amazing light beings of love showing me that what I have been looking for really exists.
5. Wild fennel smells intoxicatingly wonderful.
6. Nourish taking shape. One of my side passion projects that has been hit with a hiccup has picked back up and is taking shape in the most beautiful & delightful way. I cannot wait to share it with the world.
7. Good goddess conversation. I am so grateful for all the beautiful women in my life who I resonate & connect with on deeper levels. The goddess bond grows stronger each day.
8. Raw tiramisu is delectable. Thank you, Cafe Gratitude.
9.Great work environments with good people. I am really loving my current temp assignment. Everyone is so nice & friendly and the environment is lovely.
10. Free lunch twice a week, plus leftovers. Helping me tackle project debt elimination. Progress is being made.
11. Gorgeous boat commutes. It's so peaceful to ride the ferry to work in the mornings, spending 30 minutes gliding over the words gazing at the gorgeous land masses. And the ferry terminals are both so close to my home & this current job.
12. Saying no, especially to things I really just don't want to do. Eliminating distractions from my soul purpose feels so good. I've gotten so much better at this the last few years. There was a time when I always said yes & helped everyone all the time & never gave enough to me. I am glad those days are gone & no doesn't feel like a dirty word anymore. Now it's a way to empower myself to live the best life ever.
13. Back in the zen garden. I used to work across from this gorgeous garden in Levi's Plaza and spent my lunches basking in the sun, watching hummingbirds & soaking in the beauty of life. My new job is right next to it.
14. The cyclical nature of life. It's funny that the Universe places me across from my old job to heal that situation. My old boss there was verbally abusive & even though getting fired right when I had put it out to the Universe that I wanted to quit was the best thing that ever happened to me, I still had a foul taste left in my mouth. I took serious issue with the lack of ethics or respect for civil rights in that place & how to them it really was all about money. But I got closure this week in seeing that I am so happy with my life & they all still seemed so stressed out, miserable & chasing after something that will never fill them up. That foul taste got replaces with compassion & gratitude for having been released from that kind of environment.
15.
15. Moving Center School work-trade. I'm now a member of the crew for my beautiful 5 Rhythms dance community. I'll be working at Sweat Your Prayers a few times a month and crewing at The Moving Center School workshops in exchange for lots & lots of free and reduced dancing.
16. Deepening my commitments to this dance path feels so natural & right. This movement medicine has changed my life and helped me heal in so many ways. I cannot even express the gratitude I have for this beautiful way of praying & growing & for the beautiful welcome I have received from this community. It feels so good to be taking things to the next level, deepening in my practice and connections with these beings.
17. Lori & Kathy who are masters of this work. Their teachings have lit up my life, given me so much, helped me through so many big shifts in my life.
18. This beautiful body. I have never felt as comfortable in my body has I have this year, so full of love, appreciation & commitment to loving it & taking care of it. It is a marvelous machine & I hope it lasts until I am 100 at least. :)
19. Imogen Heap for being so amazing & filling the world with beauty. I've been addicted to finding beautiful dubstep remixes of 'Hide and Seek' lately:
20. Ingrid Michaelson for a beautiful song that breaks my heart & fills it back up again:
21. Trentemøller for so many delicious songs, but especially this one:
2. The Buddha altar that someone set up at the creek. It's become the location of almost daily prayers for me lately & has provided a strong, grounded, safe place for me to release what no longer fits & set intentions for what's coming next.
3. Prayers of release. One prayer in particular this week was exceptionally powerful & I could feel instant shifts rippling through my life for the next week. An answer I had been seeking was finally ready to reveal itself to me. Beautiful, divine flow.
4. The Soulmate Experience. My friend Mali & Joe share such a beautiful soulmate connection & share it with the world in the form of their fb site and a soon to be published book. Amazing light beings of love showing me that what I have been looking for really exists.
5. Wild fennel smells intoxicatingly wonderful.
6. Nourish taking shape. One of my side passion projects that has been hit with a hiccup has picked back up and is taking shape in the most beautiful & delightful way. I cannot wait to share it with the world.
7. Good goddess conversation. I am so grateful for all the beautiful women in my life who I resonate & connect with on deeper levels. The goddess bond grows stronger each day.
8. Raw tiramisu is delectable. Thank you, Cafe Gratitude.
9.Great work environments with good people. I am really loving my current temp assignment. Everyone is so nice & friendly and the environment is lovely.
10. Free lunch twice a week, plus leftovers. Helping me tackle project debt elimination. Progress is being made.
11. Gorgeous boat commutes. It's so peaceful to ride the ferry to work in the mornings, spending 30 minutes gliding over the words gazing at the gorgeous land masses. And the ferry terminals are both so close to my home & this current job.
12. Saying no, especially to things I really just don't want to do. Eliminating distractions from my soul purpose feels so good. I've gotten so much better at this the last few years. There was a time when I always said yes & helped everyone all the time & never gave enough to me. I am glad those days are gone & no doesn't feel like a dirty word anymore. Now it's a way to empower myself to live the best life ever.
13. Back in the zen garden. I used to work across from this gorgeous garden in Levi's Plaza and spent my lunches basking in the sun, watching hummingbirds & soaking in the beauty of life. My new job is right next to it.
14. The cyclical nature of life. It's funny that the Universe places me across from my old job to heal that situation. My old boss there was verbally abusive & even though getting fired right when I had put it out to the Universe that I wanted to quit was the best thing that ever happened to me, I still had a foul taste left in my mouth. I took serious issue with the lack of ethics or respect for civil rights in that place & how to them it really was all about money. But I got closure this week in seeing that I am so happy with my life & they all still seemed so stressed out, miserable & chasing after something that will never fill them up. That foul taste got replaces with compassion & gratitude for having been released from that kind of environment.
15.
15. Moving Center School work-trade. I'm now a member of the crew for my beautiful 5 Rhythms dance community. I'll be working at Sweat Your Prayers a few times a month and crewing at The Moving Center School workshops in exchange for lots & lots of free and reduced dancing.
16. Deepening my commitments to this dance path feels so natural & right. This movement medicine has changed my life and helped me heal in so many ways. I cannot even express the gratitude I have for this beautiful way of praying & growing & for the beautiful welcome I have received from this community. It feels so good to be taking things to the next level, deepening in my practice and connections with these beings.
17. Lori & Kathy who are masters of this work. Their teachings have lit up my life, given me so much, helped me through so many big shifts in my life.
18. This beautiful body. I have never felt as comfortable in my body has I have this year, so full of love, appreciation & commitment to loving it & taking care of it. It is a marvelous machine & I hope it lasts until I am 100 at least. :)
19. Imogen Heap for being so amazing & filling the world with beauty. I've been addicted to finding beautiful dubstep remixes of 'Hide and Seek' lately:
20. Ingrid Michaelson for a beautiful song that breaks my heart & fills it back up again:
21. Trentemøller for so many delicious songs, but especially this one:
Friday, June 25, 2010
thirty-four.
1. 5 Rhythms for bringing such profound healing into my life time and time again. I was awarded a scholarship to attend the latest 3 day workshop, entitled 'The Relationship Dance' and am still riding the wave of bliss. This movement medicine is one of the most amazing things in my life, and I am grateful every time I get to dance with my community.
2. Scholarships for making it possible for me to attend several events this year that I would not have been able to afford otherwise. The Universe is always providing!
3. Partners. So many different beings out there, each one brought into our lives for a reason. I had so many amazing partner dances this weekend that taught me so much about myself & relationship, and brought so much joy into my life.
4. Clarity. This workshop also gave me a lot of clarity on my last relationship and the lessons that teacher had for me. I am grateful for all that I am learning in this process of intimate unfolding. It suits me well to be so open with my heart.
5. Hafiz. I love Rumi just like everyone else, but Hafiz also holds an extra special place in my heart. He makes my soul melt into a giant puddle of bliss with every line.
6. Blindfold dancing. It wasn't exactly a trance-dance, but we did this exercise where we danced blindfolded, alone & with a few different partners for several songs. I feel like it's definitely something to integrate into my next partnership when difficulties arise - put the blindfolds on, turn the music up, and dance together until the energy dissipates and you can see things from a fresh perspective.
7. Connection. Another beautiful exercise was dancing around the room, stopping in front of new sets of eyes and energetically sending love, peace, healthy and the ability to move through life with ease to all these amazing souls. So much more can be said without words, it's true. This energetic connection of looking into one another's eyes is so powerful.
8. Comedies. Laugh medicine has also been big in my life lately.
9. Redwood hot tubs. Nothing like coming home from 6 hours of dancing & plopping right into the hot tub outside your bedroom to watch the sunset over the mountains. So grateful for my backyard oasis!
10. Community. I just always feel so full of love & so overflowing whenever I dance with my community. I can't explain it, it's like an energetic family where words are rarely spoken.
11. Dating. Been really needing to just go out on dates & explore my options again and enjoy the newness of other men. While I miss the wild chemistry & deep connection I had with my last guy, it is nice to just explore & be open to whatever wonderful thing is headed my way next.
12. Buddhas by the creek for giving me a beautiful place to pray on my sunset walk today. I love discovering new sacred nooks & look forward to the manifestation of this prayer, as I know it is already on it's way.
13. Barnes & Noble for being the modern day library, with tea. I'm not much for corporate chains, but you have no idea how much research I've gotten done at these places on my travels!
14. Purging. Sometimes it comes out in tears, sometimes laughter, sometimes yawns...I find peace in knowing that whatever needs to come out of us always finds a way when we allow it.
15. Vulnerability for allowing us to connect & open our hearts truly & fully to others, laying everything open in our sacred connections.
16. Intimacy. It's what keeps me dancing this beautiful dance of relationship. I love that closeness of knowing someone deeply, sharing private moments of joy, ecstasy, love, tenderness, and beauty, the Oneness that it brings to us.
17. Raspberries for being so fresh & delicious. I love summer.
18. Financial stability. It feels nice to have stabilized my income again after a year of traveling & coming back to start my own business. It's been a struggle but I am happy to be back on track with operation debt removal!
19. Opportunity. I love how we always have a choice to make something an opportunity to love more, to open more, to be of service, to stretch ourselves, to grow, etc. Life is so very different when you view things as opportunities instead of misfortunes. So different!
20. Moonbathing. Luna woke me up at 4am for a little eclipse moonbath that lasted forever. It felt nice to just lounge in bed in the glow.
21. The Unknowing for keeping life a mystery to me every day. So magical, so beautiful, so full of surprise as it all unfolds in the most perfect way.
2. Scholarships for making it possible for me to attend several events this year that I would not have been able to afford otherwise. The Universe is always providing!
3. Partners. So many different beings out there, each one brought into our lives for a reason. I had so many amazing partner dances this weekend that taught me so much about myself & relationship, and brought so much joy into my life.
4. Clarity. This workshop also gave me a lot of clarity on my last relationship and the lessons that teacher had for me. I am grateful for all that I am learning in this process of intimate unfolding. It suits me well to be so open with my heart.
5. Hafiz. I love Rumi just like everyone else, but Hafiz also holds an extra special place in my heart. He makes my soul melt into a giant puddle of bliss with every line.
6. Blindfold dancing. It wasn't exactly a trance-dance, but we did this exercise where we danced blindfolded, alone & with a few different partners for several songs. I feel like it's definitely something to integrate into my next partnership when difficulties arise - put the blindfolds on, turn the music up, and dance together until the energy dissipates and you can see things from a fresh perspective.
7. Connection. Another beautiful exercise was dancing around the room, stopping in front of new sets of eyes and energetically sending love, peace, healthy and the ability to move through life with ease to all these amazing souls. So much more can be said without words, it's true. This energetic connection of looking into one another's eyes is so powerful.
8. Comedies. Laugh medicine has also been big in my life lately.
9. Redwood hot tubs. Nothing like coming home from 6 hours of dancing & plopping right into the hot tub outside your bedroom to watch the sunset over the mountains. So grateful for my backyard oasis!
10. Community. I just always feel so full of love & so overflowing whenever I dance with my community. I can't explain it, it's like an energetic family where words are rarely spoken.
11. Dating. Been really needing to just go out on dates & explore my options again and enjoy the newness of other men. While I miss the wild chemistry & deep connection I had with my last guy, it is nice to just explore & be open to whatever wonderful thing is headed my way next.
12. Buddhas by the creek for giving me a beautiful place to pray on my sunset walk today. I love discovering new sacred nooks & look forward to the manifestation of this prayer, as I know it is already on it's way.
13. Barnes & Noble for being the modern day library, with tea. I'm not much for corporate chains, but you have no idea how much research I've gotten done at these places on my travels!
14. Purging. Sometimes it comes out in tears, sometimes laughter, sometimes yawns...I find peace in knowing that whatever needs to come out of us always finds a way when we allow it.
15. Vulnerability for allowing us to connect & open our hearts truly & fully to others, laying everything open in our sacred connections.
16. Intimacy. It's what keeps me dancing this beautiful dance of relationship. I love that closeness of knowing someone deeply, sharing private moments of joy, ecstasy, love, tenderness, and beauty, the Oneness that it brings to us.
17. Raspberries for being so fresh & delicious. I love summer.
18. Financial stability. It feels nice to have stabilized my income again after a year of traveling & coming back to start my own business. It's been a struggle but I am happy to be back on track with operation debt removal!
19. Opportunity. I love how we always have a choice to make something an opportunity to love more, to open more, to be of service, to stretch ourselves, to grow, etc. Life is so very different when you view things as opportunities instead of misfortunes. So different!
20. Moonbathing. Luna woke me up at 4am for a little eclipse moonbath that lasted forever. It felt nice to just lounge in bed in the glow.
21. The Unknowing for keeping life a mystery to me every day. So magical, so beautiful, so full of surprise as it all unfolds in the most perfect way.
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